Giving

Details of you traced with a spoon

Stirring up all the little microscopic molecules

Your skin has indentations where my love fits

Sitting carefully alongside my hope and my dreams

Allow me to love you this way

Give me the freedom to care for your being

Never underestimate me

Never think for a moment I need you for existence

I am capable and full, and it's the fullness

That allows me to give this

The plethora of energy, the substance of love

This is not an empty touch or a malnourished hug

I don't think you had any idea who I was

When you wished for this

So here it is, is it really what you want?

Just be sure to return it some

Please be kind to me

it's really all I ask

it's not too difficult a task

don't be mean if I am kind to you as well

Imperfect me, Imperfect you

Elevate with rope burns on my womb

bring me up bring me up sacrifice me to someone

Deep trenches of yellow, of yellow and blue

buried my hands in my purple wound

So cataclysms, so catechism

so hanging by iron and wood for forgiveness

so what if i don't believe

what if it's all the lies that are the sins

so when can I be forgiven?

Giving in to wrench and the hammer

Thought I fixed that door yesterday

you heard all the clammer

So why is it still unhinged?

How did it break again so soon

This time I'll leave all the fixing to you

but the room has cleared, and dust has settled

and that image of bare bones collapsed in the puddle.

There is only question I've still left to say

If you love me then please try to stay

invisible battles

This loud chatter from inside fills me

a feeling so empty

the silence in the room around echoes in my ear

This is what loneliness is

This is what it means to be on your own

I miss you and I know that I don't

just miss the presence you occupied

I miss knowing you

I miss feeling your thoughts in your skin

I miss seeing your feelings bleed from your eyes

Even if you couldn't speak them

Even if I had to drag meaning from your tongue

I long for those moments again

To feel like I existed for someone

Our bodies tangled as we slept

Holding on to one another like there was nothing else

Good bye

Guess it wasn't too difficult to see the end of this

pale lips dripping with sweat

not from passion but from compromising

we could not be more opposite

Not sure where the attraction even came from

but that attraction has now completed faded

It is good to know what you don't want

to be more clear about what you do

and now I am sure that I don't want you