You can step out of your height
I could never climb you anyway
You were unreachable
I fell to the ground from trying
and when mountains fall
the crash is bright
So walk away and let me build my mountain
Wavering slowly on a rapid decline
You just left us here
to fight over your body
To wallow in pathetic horror
To be forced to be together when we hate each other so
We love each other some
Not enough to stay together
Not enough to stand the pains of years laid wasted
So you got out early on good behaviors
she thought she could go on vacation
but she was mistaken
because all she got was psych ward and more medication
I want to break the cycle of the man who isn't available
The alone that drives me crazy
is enough to cause an ice age in my veins
So now with him, will I be alone again?
Is he available in a different way that no one else has been
Even if physically he is often not really with me.
But he loves me he says
As if those words were enough to cover over the other stuff
the stuff that never seems to move fast enough for me
I want to be free or tied to someone who wants to be tied to me
someone who will watch over me
Someone who doesn't cower from the idea of devotion
I need to be in trust, not just in love.
All these reflections on the lake of my valley
as I bend over to see clearly
my stones begin to topple over
Then I crumble
the crash was not so bright
This mountain has fallen.
